My best guy friend gave me a ride home today, and as I sat in the passenger seat I glanced at my self in the side view mirror. I actually felt beautiful. I could feel my self-esteem going up a level, but the longer I stared back at myself through that mirror, I started to see all my flaws. I looked away towards the driver’s seat; I no longer felt beautiful. But yet, I began to smile as I looked at my bestfriend .
I wanna go to that bonfire on Saturday all dressed up lookin cute and surprise ppl and show them how fucking sexy I look when I actually dress up and maybe drink just a cuople of bottles to show em that I am bout that life but just a few bc I wanna stay classy and not trashy bc i still gotta stay lookin flawless. But at the same time I don’t wanna go bc ima feel outta place bc most likely my friends won’t go only the ppl I see at school will go and I don’t really hangout with them and bc my dad ain’t gunna let me go bc he’s strict and I gotta obey his word bc im a daddy’s girl and I won’t get to hangout with my bestfriends any other night. But I still wanna go to impress ppl and say “FUCK IT cheers to the birthday girl.!” But then I don’t wanna go bc ima feel outta place bc of the ppl😒